Hatiku Percaya.

This morning, I remembered about a video post that once took my attention from my friend's facebook. It's about a testimony from Edward Chen (Indonesia's famous Christian singer and producer) and his wife, Agnes. In the video, he said that previously his relationship with Agnes was not approved by both of their parents. He didn't explain what the reason is, but at that time both of them thought that it was an impossible relationship. He quarreled with his parents, of course, like what others will do when their relationship is disapproved. However, both Edward and Agnes finally chose to broke up, since they respect their parents more than anything in this world. Even though they love each other so much, but still parents are the most important person in the world for them. They cannot do anything, other than keep praying to GOD, because in HIM nothing is impossible.

They broke-up, and Agnes decided to move to Canada to continue her study. Before she left, she called Edward's mom, and tell her not to worry anymore, because she's going to leave her son and won't contact him anymore. Then, all of a sudden, Edward's mom ask her if she really loved her son. Of course she said yes. And somehow, Edward's mom approve their relationship. They get married at the end. It's a happy ending from GOD :)

I cried when I watched their testimony. In the testimony, Agnes mentioned that at that time they prayed like crazy. They never blame GOD, as they know that every GOD's plan is good. In her prayer, she mentioned "Dear Lord, if he is really the one for me please help us get through this problem. For there's nothing is impossible in Your name If he is not the one for me, please give me strength to erase him from my mind." She let GOD do his plan without complaints, she just asked GOD to srengthen her and let GOD do the best for her. SHE TRUST HIM.

On the other hand, Edward was feeling the same. He give his everything to GOD, and let Him work things out. He wrote a song at that time, tittled "Hatiku Percaya" (eng-Trust in You). Here's the lyric:

SAAT KU TAK MELIHAT JALAN-MU

SAAT KU TAK MENGERTI RENCANA-MU

NAMUN TETAP KU PEGANG JANJI-MU

PENGHARAPANKU HANYA PADA-MU

HATIKU PERCAYA

HATIKU PERCAYA

HATIKU PERCAYA

S'LALU KU PERCAYA

LORD I WILL TRUST IN YOU

LORD I WILL TRUST IN YOU

LORD I WILL TRUST IN YOU

MY HEART WILL TRUST IN YOU

It was a simple yet beautiful song.

Here is the link for the video:

http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=1411804889244&ref=mf

So, for whoever you are who is now doubting about your 'future partner', DO NOT BE WORRIED! Since He has a beautiful plan for us! Just keep praying, and ask Him for a partner. Don't forget to trust in Him, too :)

Maya.

Current Issues in MY Life.

Ok, so I'll just say that my upcoming IELTS test is the most important issues in my life. ARGGGHHH..!!! I only have a month to prepare it, yet still don't know how should I prepare for it. Errr... Actually, still too lazy to work on it. But yeah, this test will determine my future so I think I have to start and be serious. Wish me luck, please..... 7.0 will be possible, right?? OHH...YEAHHH...!!!!

Second! It's still about my teenage life, you know lha... Mostly about 'friendship', 'love life', and uni stuffs. Sigh~ I hope that someday I can get rid of these problems from my life.

Okay, so let's just break them down. First, it's about friend. I find it really-really-really-rreeeaaalllyyyy hard to find a friend whom you can trust. Seriously. So in conclusion, you CANNOT trust anyone. Telling them some of your secrets are okay, but don't give them your 'biggest' secret. Never feed them with confidential thing. 'Coz it will be the same as using a very big speaker to tell people about your secrets. It's very irritating, right. So then, this problem's getting bigger and bigger day by day. Just in my opinion, though. For example is, how should you present yourself in front of others? Should you be 100% honest, or 100% fake? Realistically, you can't be half and half. Okay, let me tell you about my experience few years ago, when I was still in my high school.

When I was in my high school, I was quite an active person (in terms of school's activities) so I did know a lot of people. However, I was pretty shy at that time, so I just know most of them without being closer with everyone that I know. Those people, always think that I'm a very friendly and patient person. I never get angry, always smile and say positive things. Even when I become the editor in chief of my school's magazine, I can't even be angry to my XXXX teams!!!

It was very different, compared to nowadays when never 'pretend' to be someone nice. I say what I think most of the time; PLUS, I will show them a 'not-so-good face' when I dislike something.

So, relating to my short story above, which one will you choose? Realizing that there are pros and cons in any decisions that you'll make. When you keep on pretending to be a nice person, everyone will "LOVE" you, even though your heart won't feel good. It hurts, especially when you have to keep it in your heart without letting anyone knows about it. And at some point, maybe you'll reach your limit, when all your pains accumulated and ready to explode. BOOMM!!!

On the other hand, when you stop pretending to be nice.. some will love you, most will "HATE" you. If you're not ready to be hated by people, you'll experience a lot of difficult times you know.. However, deep down inside your heart, there won't be any anger or grudge are kept. You'll feel more peaceful when you are honest to yourself. :) It's a personal satisfaction, I think. Hihihihi..

Personally, I'm learning to be true to myself. I want to tell the world, "TAKE ME AS I AM or WATCH ME AS I GO!" I doesn't mean to be offensive or selfish or arrogant by learning to behave this way. It's just... yeah,.. Sometimes you have to value yourself more, right? 'Coz most people in this world doesn't deserve your kindness. So yeah, experience will teach you a lot of things, they will teach you how to grow up and be mature, how to deal with good and bad people, and the most important is how to be yourself. ^___^

The next little bits, are "love life" and "uni stuffs". I can't say a lot about my 'love-life' since it will be too private to be talked. I just hope that I can have more courage, more spirit, and more confidence in pursuing my love. Nowadays, there are too many princessES in this world, so yeah... I suppose that a princess can't just sitting quietly waiting for her prince to come. She has to go out there and compete with other princesses, in order to be together with the prince.

Lastly, uni stuffs.. Can I just scream? AAARRGHHHHH....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love,

Mayayam

movie- 3 IDIOTS

Before, I always think that Indian movie is lame, and not worth-watching. But, I was wrong. After watching this movie, I feel Indian movie is so cool!!!

The story in this movie is very interesting, and it flows very well- from the beginning until the end. :) Additionally, It also present good morales about life, love, and friendship. You will learn a lot from this movie; about yourself, pe

ople around you, people you loved, your future, and your heart. Here is a brief synopsis about

this movie from www.imdb.com :

Farhan Qureshi (R. Madhavan), Raju Rastogi (Sharman Joshi), and Rancchoddas "Rancho" Shyamaldas Chanchad (Aamir Khan) are three engineering students who share a room in a hostel at the Imperial College of Engineering, one of the best colleges in India. While Farhan and Raju are average students from modest backgrounds, Rancho is from a rich family. Farhan wants to become a wildlife photographer, but has joined engineering college to fulfil his father's wish. Raju on the other hand wants to uplift his family fortunes. Rancho is a wealthy genius who studies for the sheer joy of it. However, Rancho's passion is for knowledge and taking apart and building machines rather than the conventional obsession of the other studen

ts with exam ranks. With his different approach Rancho incurs the wrath of dean of college, Professor Viru Sahastrabudhhe (ViruS) (Boman Irani). Rancho irritates his lecturers by giving creative and unorthodox answers, and confronts ViruS after fellow student Joy Lobo hangs himself in his dormitory room.

Threatened by Rancho's talent and free spirit, ViruS labels him an "idiot" and attempts on a number of occasions to destroy his friendship with Farhan and Raju, warning them and their parents to steer clear of Rancho. Meanwhile, Rancho also falls in love with ViruS' medical student daughter Pia (Kareena Kapoor) when he, Raju and Farha

n crash her sister's wedding banquet in order to get a free meal, in the process further infuriating ViruS.

The three students continue to anger ViruS, although Rancho continues to come first in every exam, while Chatur is

always second, and Farhan and Raju are inevitably in the last two positions. The tensions come to a head when the three friends, who are already drunk, break into ViruS's house at night to allow Rancho to propose to Pia, and then urinate on a door inside the compound before running away when ViruS senses intruders. The next day, ViruS threatens to expel Raju lest he talks on the other two. Unable to choose between betraying his friend or letting down his family, Raju jumps out of the 3rd floor window and lands on a courtyard, but after extensive care from Pia and his roommates, awakes from a coma.

Their story is framed as intermittent flashbacks from the present day, ten years after Chatur vowed revenge on Rancho for embarrassing him at the speech night and promised to become more successful than Rancho a decade later. Having lost contact with Rancho, who disappeared during the graduation party and went into seclusion, Raju and Farhan begin a journey to find him. They are joined by Chatur, now a wealthy and successful businessman, who joins them, brazenly confident that he has surpassed Rancho.

Then, will they find Rancho? What has happened to Rancho, that made him left? You'd better watch this movie!

What I've learnt from this movie is:

+ "All is well!" :) - Rancho, Farhan, Raju

+ Love your friends and family! "You can have many exams, but you'll only have one dad."-Rancho.

+ Always follow your heart. "Engineering is my passion. I love engineering. I'll never get tired of it."- Rancho

+ Respect your perents, more than anything. "I don't care what Mr. Kapoor will say, it wont make any difference in me.What you say is what really matters to me."- Farhan

+ You'd better know what 'love' really is. "Have you really ever fall in love? It's when you see the person that you like everywhere. It is when the moon looks bigger and more beautiful than what it use to be." - Rancho

+ Always stand on what you believe in! Never let something change yourself. Show the world who you are! "I have gone through many experiences before I come to who I am right now. Sir, you can keep this job for another person who will suit your criteria, because I cannot change myself."- Raju

Actually, you can find many more inside. That's what I can memorize right now. hehehe Anyway, this movie has made me laugh, cry, dream, and believe that all is well! :D

Lonely and unwell.

I was on my way home, after I finished from working in the city . I walked alone to my house, when it's already dark, cold, and quiet. And somehow, I feel so lonely and how much I miss my family in Indonesia. Suddenly, it was just popped up in my mind-all the memories that I spent with them in the last holiday. Usually, at that hour, I was at home with papa and mama; waiting for my sisters. I miss them badly! My mom's tummy, my dad's warm-but hard-hug (because of his skinny postures)! Even, I also miss my little sisters, who always complaint about meaningless things for the sake of my attention. Ha! I knew it. Lol

Errrmm, I miss my family. So bad. And I started to cry on the street-along the way back home. i wish they were here. I wish I were not alone. I wish, at least, there will be someone who would be waiting for me. But, it didn't turn out to be that way. Even after I reached home, no one is there. If I was in Indo, there will be papa and mama welcoming me with foods, hugs, and kisses.

Then, I started to think."What makes me want to stay here?" It's true, especially when I compare my life in here and in Indo. I have everything ready for me in Indo, I don't have to do anything and I don't have to work so hard like now. I can see mama and papa everyday. I can tell them every minutes how I love them. I will never have to feel so lonely like this.

But then, this is just a life. It is a decision that I have made. I want to stay here, and I will do anything to make my self feel happy to be here. As a grown-up person, you have to be responsible with your decisions, with your life. Plus, you have to be careful so that any decisions that you have made will not effect anybody's life. Like, even though I miss mama and papa, I should not really show it to them, because.. It will just make them sad, they will worry about me then. Instead, if I can survive here and just do everything with a grateful heart. I wish I can tell them how I feel, how much I need them, and how much I love them.

Maya.☺

H2H - Heart to Heart

Today, i went for a dinner with one my best friend -Cheryl. We spent quite a long time to chat, about everything, anything, that we've missed out; that's happened to us recently. Especially, when we separated because of the long semester break. It was a good quality time, as we talk more than before, heart to heart, and confess about a lot of things! I feel so happy and relieve... You know, it's like 1kg of your weight has gone! hahahaha :D

My conclusion from today's lesson is.... People need to share their feelings, because it's in fact can make them feel better. But, note that you share it with the correct person. A brief but meaningful post from me, today. Have a good nite, peeps!

Maya. ☺

Sunday preach @church

These days, I love Sunday more than other days in a week. It is just the day, when you can really feel peaceful- when you're in His house. I always feel that I gain something when I'm back from church, and feeling that I'm getting a little bit closer with Him. So, let me just share some lessons that I got from church last week and this morning.

July, 25th 2010

Lukas 11: 1-13 "Mintalah maka kamu akan diberi, carilah maka kamu akan mendapat, ketuklah maka pintu akan dibukakan bagimu. Karena setiap orang yang mencari akan mendapat, dan setiap orang yang mengetuk akan dibukakan pintu."

Our God, is our father. If we want something, just ask Him and He'll give it to us if it is really good for us. He knows what's good, and what's bad. He is our awesome GOD!! That's the super brief point on last Sunday's preach. LOL. It's been a week! I forget some of it already la,... haiyaaa.... but it's a nice one. Because it suits me, in a way. I never ask, I don't dare to ask. In fact, how can he give us something that we, ourself, never ask it from Him. So true, huh?

August, 1st 2010

I forget to take notes from which part of bible today's preach comes from. But, anyway I noted some of the points. It's about everyone's characteristic and behaviour, GREED. Whether you realize it or not, this element has caused a lot of bad things. For example, fighting between family about parent's will. Such an appropriate things to do, right? But it's so true, and it's a reality. Everyone loves money, maybe even more than their siblings. sigh~

Anyway, you can also relate this point to other situations in our daily life. For example, when we always to be the number one, we one to work harder so we can get more money compare to others, and a lot more. It is not good, you know?! Not good for you, for your life, and for people around you. So, the solution for this problem is "enough".

When you feel enough, you can feel how blessed you are. When you feel that you have had enough, you will stop comparing yours with others. Your heart will be filled with satisfaction and peace. :)

Isn't it what we always looking for, more than anything in this world?