Firstly, this post is about being 'a shadow'. Confuse?? Check this lyric out first, by Ashlee Simpson called "Shadow".
I was six years old
When my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me
All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity
So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
Don't feel sorry for me-
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past is in the past
I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally see
So don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me
Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day
Ashlee is the younger sister of Jessica Simpson, a very famous singer with her high-pure-nice voice, and good looking appearance, and blah blah blah.. While Ashlee, just started her debut as a singer, yet a lot of people complain about her voice which is in fact not as good as her sister. And in fact, not only about her career or voice, people always compare her with her sister since she was a little girl. And since then, she start to feel the burden behind her sister's shadow. She never hates Jess, as being better than her. She never intends to steal the spotlight from her sister as well. She is just tired of living behind her sister's shadows. Like what her song says, she's tired of being second best and tired of running and hiding.. But it was then, and not now anymore. She's free to become her self and proof to the world that she's different from Jess. They both good in their own way. Again, like what she sings in her song, She's now free from the chain, and living in a new day.
Yupyupyuppp... That was a brief introduction (or example?) about living behind someone else's shadows. So, how about you? How about me? Have you felt like that? Always being second best, always behind the shadow or just stand in the background? If you do feel it, it's so sad, hey?? I know how it feels. Indeed. :) Sometimes, you feel you want to cry because of this, you just want the world to see you more and to know you more. But it is not something big that is worth of your tears. So then the question is, what will you do? Will you change yourself in order to adjust to the world, do something more -even it's not you- just to make them see more of you? Or just continue your life as someone's shadow?
Unfortunately, I cannot answer this question myself because honestly, I am stuck in this situation right now. No-no-no. I've been always stuck in this situation. I want to shout, i want to cry, but I don't know what's there to be cried for. I didn't mean that I regret my life or want something more because I have had enough. I am thankful for who I am right now, and for everything that I have. It is just... temporary mind sickness. LOL
I am really-really tired and do not know what to do to get out of this, or at least to overcome my mind towards this problem. I am waiting for someone who can see the best in me, who can make me his number one. I hope that this wait will not be too long, because I'm getting tired of waiting now..
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