Yesterday, was not a good day for me. I was a little bit more sensitive than before, I thought of a lot of unnecessary things. Then later on at night, I called my mom just because I missed her. And of course, a daughter will always be looking for her mom, whenever she doesn't feel right or if there's something need to be discussed. I have a long (read: super-long) chat with my mom. We talked about our life recently, than about my future and my fears. I have been living my life under a lot of fears recently. It is so-not-me, especially if I compare myself with who I am when I was still in high school. But yeah, calling my mom at that time was the best decision. Because she knew right on the spot, what I was thinking and she gave me some advise. She opened my eyes last night.
Well,.. from our conversation last night I can conclude that actually my problem is not about the fear that I always think I might face in the future,.. but the problem is in myself. I'm losing my direction, my dream, and my plan. I don't have any certain good plan for my future. And I guess, I should start from now. I should re-arrange my life from now before everything's too late. :) Thank you, mama! You have really-really-really opened up my eyes!
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Mama-ku-yang-sok-cuantekk!
And this morning, before I went to work I received an SMS from my mom. She wrote (I'll just put it in INDO, I'm too lazy to translate it rite now) hihihihihii:
Ce, nggak usah mikir yang aneh2. Ingat, karir-jodoh-hidup sudah diatur sama Tuhan dan kita hanya bisa mohon untuk diberikan yang terbaik. Percayalah pada saat yang tepat, Tuhan akan memberikan yang terbaik buat cece. Ingat perjalanan hidup papa dan mama. Bawa segala kecemasan dalam doa dan Tuhan pasti akan menjawab walau tidak seketika. Itu sudah mama alamai dalam hidup mama dan orang2 di sekitar mama. :)
♥♥♥My MOM is THE BEST!! I LOVE YOU, mama!!!!♥♥♥
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