Australia..oh.. Australia!

I'm sooooo into shopping recently! I know it's bad, but I'm kinda losing my control, when I found 'something' nice on the internet. Yes, it is an online shopping that has successfully made my money $$$$$ gone ! One click, and pssiiiuuuuuu.... 0 \(o______o)/ But the good thing is, everything's become cheaper this few weeks, thanks to AUD that's going stronger and stronger everyday, almost beat the USD! Oh yeahhh, watch out America! So, it is so irresistible, when you found something nice on the internet , and the price is almost the same when you convert the USD into AUD! wth!

So, what did I buy on the internet? Most of the time, I spent my money on cosmetics, particularly Japanese brands since it's hardly to find one here. And, recently I purchased some (useless) shoes, they are cheap (it is!) but don't expect to much for the quality! Worst, i ordered the wrong sizes.. T_T So, can't wear them absolutely... And then, just yesterday, I bought a lot of cheap fashion stuff, that cost me around $200, from Korea!!! >< I regret it a little bit, realizing that maybe I spent too much since it's my first time shopping there... Anyway, good reviews about that Korean site, make me excited for my haul!! Oh pleaseeee, EMS, deliver it faster to my place!!!! :D :D :D :D Again, thanks to AUD!!! Everything's become muchhhhh cheaper! I cant explain how happy I am when the number's decreasing when I convert it into AUD! hahahahaha WOOHHHOOOOOO... Please arrive faster!!

Btw, here are the SHOEs!! Since the size is too small for me, hopefully I can give it to my little sister.. Coz her size is wayyyyyyy smaller than mine!

Love the blue ones, though :p

a gift ♥

Here are some picts from Cheryl + Acung + Winny Bday dinner, where girls' head are full of flowers and the guys look funnier with the bow tie!

Look at my flowers! Hahaha :p

Wearing BATIK with neng geulis

Pretty GIRLS with their flowers!

Cool GUYS with their "bow" tie!

I thank GOD for giving them into my life. A family that I called "friends"

Real Disaster + some picts from ICYO night!

Okay, so today is a REAL worst DISASTER ever!! I woke up late this morning, when I am supposed to open the shop. Worse, the boss came first before me and he was very mad at my manager even though luckily he didn't scold me. OMG. Then, when I have to close the shop,  I made mistakes (again); I forgot to turned on the ice machine. Oh well, s**t happens rite?

My unfortunate event continued, when I almost can't go home. The train's terminated for almost half an hour, and don't know why the train station is super crowded with people dressed-up like a rocker. Maybe, they wanted to watch a concert at Burswood. Some other people (women), they even got drunk in the train and keep shouting like crazy. Horror !!! =3=

That's enough for my disaster today.. Let's clean up all of the mess, with nice photos from ICYO night yesterday. I can't say that I enjoyed the event so much yesterday, since I'm still a newbie there and don't know most of the people there. But, overall it was a nice event, nice foods, and nice people! Can't wait to attend this event again next month, and hopefully I can get along well with them :D 

steveng-kevin-adi-din2-mayayam

with a lil-bit PS retouch. :p

the situation

what my group's made! Sandwhich, theme: "Musa menyeberangi sungai Yordan"

Last Episode!!!

AAARRRGGHHH!!!! I'm downloading the last ep. of Playful Kiss right now!!!! I really-really-really cannot wait to watch it!!! Yeah, I cant wait to see them (OHN and BSJ) together..!! They make such a lovely couple (make me want to get married early, sigh~)!

While waiting for this drama to be downloaded, I'd like to write some points. It just come up suddenly in my mind..

Girls, you should be happy and respect those guys who give you their loves.. for there's a lot of girls out there who is struggling hard to get their love.. Worse, there're also those who don't even dare to try to get their love.. So, act wisely and respect people's feelings!

Also, I want to share a song that I found last night. It is a sad song by a Swedish Singer, Amy Diamond. THe song title's Bittersweet, and somehow.. I feel that this song suit me alot,..

It's hard to find the thing to say
I'm vulnerable and frail
So I wrap my heart in bubble plastic
Just in case it breaks

Before you and I go much further now
I'm asking you to tell me
Do you really want my love?
Is it really me you're thinking of?
When you smile at me
It's so bittersweet
Let me know
Before tomorrow comes along
Cause baby I'm already in too deep
Until then I love you bittersweet

I can't let go
But this I know
I won't let you stay
If you're not sure about the way you feel
About the two of us today
Before you and I go much further now
I'm asking you to please tell me

Do you really want my love?
Is it really me you're thinking of?
When you smile at me
It's so bittersweet
Let me know
Before tomorrow comes along
Cause baby I'm already in too deep
Until then I love you bittersweet

It's heaven when when you say it's you and me
But hell when you're gone mysteriously
I'd rather be alone than lost and torn
Maybe I must make it on my own
I'm feeling incomplete
Loving you is so bittersweet

Do you really want my looo-ooo-ooo-ooooooove?

Do you really want my love?
Is it really me you're thinking of?
When you smile at me
It's so bittersweet
Oh let me know
Before tomorrow comes along
Cause baby I'm already in too deep
Until then I love you bittersweet 

Until then I love you bittersweet 
New must-watch Kdrama after Playfull kiss: 

from top-clockwise: 1. Sungkyunkwan Scandal 2. My Girlfriend is a Gumiho 3. Mary Stayed-out All Night

New blog and bunch of kisses!!!!

I started to feel better today (not in my depression mood again).. hahaha I'm not sure myself why, but maybe... it's because the new K-drama that I've watched! I love this series so much, it makes my heart beats again every-time I watch a drama (which I have never felt again for so~ long after Princess Hours and My Girl back in 2007)! So, in conclusion.. I was so happy and cannot wait for the last :( episode tomorrow!! OMG! hahahaha

♥♥♥Playful Kiss/Mischievous Kiss♥♥♥

It's a story about Baek Seungjo (BSJ) and Oh Hani (OHN).. It's not a new story, though.. Since it's based on a manga called Itazura na Kiss, and already been filmed in Japan and Taiwan (even Indonesia copied it too, lol)! I watched all the versions, and keep falling in love every-time I watch it. Yeahhh, maybe I'm just jealous with the girls, the main characters. She's not pretty, she's not smart, she just have a heart made of gold and spirit made of steel! BRAVO! I always want to be like her, but I know I'm not that type of person and it's kinda hard for me. Anyway, I adore her despite of every shameful acts that she did. And, the genius-guy loves her anyway, that's the most important thing right. :p

Okay, so enough about this series.. and I still have a list of other series to watch! Oh I wish I have more internet allowance to watch them :'( Anyway, that's for today.. And, I'm still waiting for something new (in a good way) happening into my life! Oh yeah, I'm nervous with my IELTS result which will be out by this Saturday I guess.. Zzzzzzz

kiss-kiss-kiss,

mayayam!

i need a CHANGE!

OHHHHH I really-really-really need to CHANGE!

My life's so messed-up recently! :( not only my life, though... my marks, my body, my future, my blah-blah-blah... seem so bad. yucks! I can't live like this, and I know I need to change!

I need to change my BLOG design as well! I want something more sophisticated than this, something "ME" ! hahahahaha

I WANT and NEED to CHANGE!

Loneliness

Have you ever felt so wrong and everything go not as what you expect?

Have you ever felt that your the dumbest and the meanest person in the world?

Have you ever felt that you "look like" you have everything, but actually you feel nothing?

Yes I have felt all of those feeling before.

I'm feeling lonely, even though there are a lot of people surround me.

I feel nothing, even though others thing I have everything.

Playing on a swing

It was yesterday evening, when I decided that I need some 'refreshment' and went for a walk around my neighborhood. Thanks God it's Australia, where it's not hard to find a beautiful park near your house. :p I found one small park, with a mid-size fountain lake and a playground located very near from my house (maybe about 3mins walking).

Yes, I liked it there so much and decided to call it maysecretgarden hihihihi :P Oh well, it was quite fun even though I was alone. Sometimes, I need a 'me' time even though I hate being alone, just to think about nothing and letting go some feelings. I played on a swing, gazing the world around me,.. Suddenly it feels like a flashback, all the things that's happening recently which make me a little bit stressed out. Yes, it may look like an easy problem compared to another people's problem, or it seems like something unimportant. But for me, it matters only if you know how much it hurts. But thankfully, I'm getting used to it. I'm trying to not care about it anymore. People change, life change, everything change.. and this is the truth, where reality do bites!

I played on a swing for around half an hour, with my iPod playing some memorable songs. I got inspired. Well, looking back at our life, it's like playing on a swing. At first, it will be hard for you to move.

Even after you can move forward a little bit, you have to pull back so that you can make a bigger move in the next swing, and that's how it goes. Move backward, for a bigger swing forward! It's hard, but you enjoy every move that you make so that at the end you can feel the joy by swinging very high until you can feel that you almost reach the sky!

Yes, this is how we should see our life. Every first step in our life, it will be the most difficult part that we need to face. Then, a lot of things will happen that can make as move either forward or backward. But one thing to remember, every backward move that is made will lead you to a higher forward move. Every problems that we are facing in our life, sometimes will push us backward until we realize it at the end that actually this is what make us stronger and better. Yet, like playing on a swing, we have to enjoy every movement that we make for there is a joy and pleasure sticking on it.

Who says only kids love playing on a swing. I love it, or at least I'm trying to enjoy it.. So, how about you?

I'm on my way UP

These few weeks maybe the worst weeks in this year, while everything goes down and somehow it feels so hard for me to recover. It's not a BIG-SERIOUS problem that make me depressed and stressed out everyday.. It's just a lot of little things accumulated in my mind, that annoys me and even can ruin my mood for the whole day. And now, I know that I should start getting up and FIX my self, FIX my life! I have been neglecting my future, I live my ordinary life with emptiness, without a goal, without a dream. Sigh~ So at least now I know where I have to change, and I have to be more serious now.. I have to really-really burn the bridge.. So I wont go back in the middle of my new journey!

Okayyy, so let's describe what are my life goals (what if I make it like a management report?) :

Long Term Goals:

1. I want to have my own business someday, and I'm thinking of a customized boutique or even a small cake shop! (In AUSTRALIA!!! I don't know why I want to stay here so badly now.. )
2. I want to buy a house in Applecross!

Short Term Goals

1. Study harder in my last semester, and for my IELTS test next week.
2. Find a new job, and hopefully I can get an accountant job!! Or at least, office job. sigh~
3. Get my PR approval
4. Saving money $2000/year!
5. Lose weight 5kg by the end of 201o !!! (can or not? LOL)

So yeah, that's the goal that I plan for now. I think.. Ehmmm, I'll revise my short term goals next year on my birthday..! :P Hopefully I can successfully achieve my goals! uuwaaaaaa @.@ And... in terms of ME, I also intend to change my self, change my heart. I need to CHANGE!:

• To know GOD more, to be a full time Christian
• To be more feminine, stop acting rude and scolding people
• To be calm, so won't easily get angry
• Stop talking behind peoples back, gossiping, in summary: Trying to control my mouth!
• To be more committed into promises and priorities
• To love my family even more
• To love peoples around me.

THAT's ALL for ME :D